Ever felt like you’ve been seenzoned by God?
In 2014, God radically flipped my world upside down and for the next year or so, He continually poured purpose, encouragement and favour into my life. He answered my prayers one by one in jaw-dropping ways and for the first time in forever, I heard and saw Him clearly.
Now imagine going from that… to complete silence.
Earlier this year, I went through a bit of a dry spell. On the outside, everything was going well. Great, even. But inside I felt a sense of emptiness that I just couldn’t shake off. I was constantly praying, reading and listening yet nothing was going in. No answers. Just God’s silence. I couldn’t feel, hear or see a single trace of God’s presence and so I began to question whether or not God had ever spoken to me at all.
One day I was at a cafe and there was a beautiful old couple sitting across from me. They weren’t talking to each other. Despite the silence, I could tell that they were happy in each other’s company.
It was right there and then that God spoke to me about the silence that had been bothering me for months.
If you think about it, it takes a lot of love and trust to sit comfortably in silence with someone. 90% of the time, silence is usually just… awkward (cringe). Like the old couple, God wants us to be so comfortable with Him that sitting in silence isn’t awkward or dreadful or intimidating. Sometimes God will choose to stay silent because He wants our relationship with Him to get to the point where constants words and affirmations aren’t necessary. He wants us to be sure of His love, even when we can't hear or see Him.
That season of silence was His way of showing me that my relationship with Him was far from that point. I had been operating on an ‘I’ll believe it when I see it’ faith.
Life had become so full and so busy that as soon as God decided to slow down, I panicked. The thought of being quiet or still shocked me. Don’t be afraid of being still. Don’t be afraid of God’s silence. Consider it an opportunity to step forward and draw even nearer to Him. Eventually I came to the realization that the absence of God’s voice was not the absence of His love. God’s silence was His way of enabling me to want more; search for more; thirst for more; make room for more.
Life had become so full and so busy that as soon as God decided to slow down, I panicked. The thought of being quiet or still shocked me. Like any other relationship, the one we have with God will have natural ebbs and flows. Sometimes God will answer your prayer exactly the way you asked, and other times it will seem as if He’s not listening to you at all. I guess the point I’m trying to get across here is – God has been, is, and will always be with you, regardless of how you feel. He hears every single prayer and knows every thought, fear and desire you have in your heart. Even when you can’t hear His voice – even when you’ve wandered off – remember that He is always near. Search and seek, even when all you can hear is silence. Trust God when He says that He will be found by you when you seek Him with all your heart.